Real Thoughts From a Real Woman

Broken But Still There

2010-02-25T00:24:00.000-08:00

Broken but still there
Financial ruin was put in my weather forecast
Eviction is baking in the oven
Friends are now few & far in between
Criticism is plenteous
Welfare is a battlefield
An interview is a distant lover
Life appears broken but hope is still there
Lovers are shrewd
The only assistance they’re offering is in exchange for getting screwed
The unemployment process is cruel
Child support officials give you the blues
Family in a duel
Church folk rude
Broken but still hoping
Fire still in the bones
Still after the “Jefferson’s “theme song
Refuse to move to the rhythm in a thong
The determination is long
With the strength of King Kong
Faith second to none
Opportunities continue to run
Broken but my hope ain’t done
Many stare
Most don’t care
Some wear sack cloth & shave their hair
Only want to smell passion in the air
Broken but FAITH, HOPE & LOVE still there…

Sexcapade

2010-02-13T04:16:00.000-08:00

Lick me with your intellect
Fondle me with your core
Make me weak in the knees with your consistency
Kiss me with generosity
Caress me wit understanding
Penetrate me with faithfulness
Pound me with adventure
Climax me with devotion
Make my body shiver through discovery
Spank me with intrigue
Nibble me with thoughtfulness
Quiver my soul with your adoration
Stimulate my secret place with your integrity
Show me your peace
Passion moves me
Spiritual connectedness is what keeps me
Mental captivation is what I need
Slow grind me with kindness
Give me multiple orgasms with your courage
Cover me with your heart
Impregnate me with your essence
Toss my salad with authenticity
Make me contract with your sincerity
Make me squirt a river from your love…

True Change happens within, not without

2010-01-25T00:13:00.000-08:00

If one thing is certain in life, it is change
Change can happen to you or in you
But nevertheless change is sure to come
Why spend your precious commodity of time
Fighting the inevitable, change
Seasons can’t stay the same
Physical change is essential to the human life span
True change comes from the core
Internal change is not a chore
It brings about peace all the more
Critical life issues, evils & circumstance
Can only be eradicated by true change
All other efforts are egotistical bandaids
Does the real inner work make us afraid
Could that be why we hate change
And cause soo many difficult human exchanges
If one thing is certain in life, it is change
Good or bad, active or passive, peaceful or not
Change is sure to come
You have the power
Yes you are the one
That determines if it happens to you or in you
Know where your power comes from
So put down your loaded word gun
Take not of the sun
Relax and have your type of fun
Don’t forget life was meant to be abundant…

NO ICONS, LETS MOBILIZE

2010-01-15T04:00:00.000-08:00

I DON’T NEED ANOTHER DAMN ICON
SHOW ME A NEGRO THAT’S MOTIVATED
I’M TIRED OF FOREPLAY WITH NO CLIMAX
I’M TIRED OF POLITICIANS & CELEBRITIES
STIMULATING MY COMMUNITY
BUT NOT IMPREGNATING IT
WITH HOPE, CHANGE, EQUAL ACCESS
BUSINESS CAPITAL, ECONOMIC DEVELOPMENT
TANGIBLE & ADEQUATE EDUCATIONAL RESOURCES
FOR OUR STUDENTS & TEACHERS
I’M TIRED OF THESE LOCAL RADIO STATIONS
SHOVING ICONS & CELEBRITIES
DOWN MY THROAT TO APPEASE ME
BUT WHEN I LOOK AT THE GENTRIFICATION
& DESOLATION OF MY COMMUNITY
I REALIZE YOU PUT TOGETHER SOME OF THESE
COMMUNITY FORUMS JUST TO DECEIVE ME
WE DON’T NEED ICONIC BAND AIDS
To repair these broken bones, growth & development challenges in our community
We need the re-constructive surgery of mobilization NOW!
I don’t need another DAMN ICON
What I need is mobilization
Stop tantalizing, stimulating & tranquilizing me with the flash
Help me be the change that I need
Can we start with a little cash?
In inner city schools, cash to clean our streets, cash to build & re-develop real affordable housing, cash in community
Can we start with a little cash?
In inner city schools, cash to clean our streets, cash to build & re-develop real affordable housing, cash in community centers, cash in our small businesses
Cash to build our financial IQ, cash to educate me about my ancient African ancestry
Don’t give me another ICON
Let’s mobilize our community…

Peace

2010-01-05T00:05:00.000-08:00

There is nothing like it and few words to describe it. I feel peace when I play tickle bunnies with my daughters. In the US we believe every man has a right to pursue happiness, but often we overlook the peace in the pursuit. Happiness isn’t a destination it’s a journey. Peace is a verb, a state of being. The human mind can’t fully comprehend it. Peace can be experienced with simple acts such as baking cookies, having a glass of wine in solitude or laughing with a friend. Peace is everywhere. It is accessible, ready and available to all who desire it. Peace can be with anyone no matter your ethnicity, sex, age, culture or class. Peace is greater than pleasure. It is not tied to a certain action, person, place or thing. I witness peace when my eyes lay hold of the sunrise. I hear peace when I hear birds chirping early in the morning. I feel it when I jump waves in the ocean, or when I smile at someone. I experience peace when I share my time, money, talent & joy. I see potential peace in every moment. There’s peace in reflecting, peace in love, peace in breathing, peace in thinking and peace in accepting. Peace is so rewarding. It’s filling and lovely. It deserves to be held. Peace. There is nothing like it and few words to describe it.

AND IT CAME TO PASS…

2009-12-30T06:00:00.000-08:00

THESE FIVE WORDS ARE REPEATED OVER & OVER THROUGH OUT MY FAVORITE BOOK “THE BIBLE”. I NEVER UNDERSTAND THEM UNTIL THIS VERY MOMENT 4/25/09 AT 8:47 AM SITTING UNDER AN OCEANSIDE TIKI HUT ON SUNNY ISLES BEACH, READING A PASSAGE FROM ECKHART TOLLE’S BOOK “THE POWER OF NOW”. THE FOLLOWING STATEMENT TOOK MY BREATH AWAY, STOPPED ME IN MY TRACKS & BROUGHT THOSE FIVE WORDS ARE MORE THAN A STATEMENT. THEY ARE A LENS THROUGH WHICH LIFE IS TO BE VIEWED ALWAYS. THIS IS THE STATE OF BEING GOD WANTS US TO ALWAYS BE, PEACE. IT ALL COMES TO PASS! IT HAS TO BE HEART KNOWLEDGE, NOT HEAD/MIND KNOWLEDGE TO LAST & STAY IN US. FOLLOWERS OF MY FAVORITE BOOK KNOW THAT OUT OF THE ABUNDANCE OF THE HEART DOES THE MOUTH SPEAK. LET THIS SINK IN YOUR HEART & STAY ON YOUR LIPS, CONCERNING ALL THINGS. LOVE RELATIONSHIPS AS AWESOME & GREAT AS THEY ARE BE IT FRIENDLY, FAMILIAR OR ROMANTIC THEY COME TO PASS & WILL NOT ALWAYS PHYSICALLY BE. CAREERS, POSITIONS, JOBS, BUSINESSES AS LUCRATIVE, FULFILLING OR STABE AS THEY MAY SEEM ARE IMPERMANENT & WILL COME TO PASS. HOUSES, AUTOMOBILES, ELECTRONICS, GADGETS, VACATION SPOTS, CLOTHES, PURSES, SHOES, JEWELRY & THE LIKE NO MATTER HOW PLEASANT, LUXURIOUS OR PLENTIOUS THEY MAY BE, IT DEFINITELY COMES TO PASS. APPRECIATE & FEEL THE JOY OF WHAT YOU TEMPORARILY HAVE & WHERE YOU TEMPORARILY ARE & THE MOMENTARY LOVE YOU SHARE WITH THOSE WHO ARE IN YOUR LIFE FOR THIS SEASON. DON’T BE DEPRESSED, ANGRY OR SAD. LET THIS HEART KNOWLEDGE & LIFE LENSE, SET YOU FREE FROM A LIFE OF UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENTS YOU’VE BEEN SOLD SINCE CHILDHOOD, THAT KEEP US ON OVERLY EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTERS WHEN THE INEVITABLE FACTOR CALLED CHANGE OCCURS. LET IT GIVE YOU THE PEACE THAT GOD DESIRES YOU TO HAVE. PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL HUMAN UNDERSTANDING. PAIN, SUFFERING, LOSS, CHALLENGES, WAR, BANKRUPTCY, DECEIT, LIES, CAPTIVITY, STRUGGLE, POVERTY, SHAME, GUILT, DENIAL, DISAPPOINTMENTS & BETRAYAL ALL COMES TO PASS. NONE OF IT IS HERE TO STAY, SO LIVE LIFE WITH A LITTLE MORE EASE & KNOW IN YOUR HEART NO MATTER HOW GOOD OR BAD “AND IT ALL COME TO PASS…”!

Ready to love

2009-12-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

Ready to share the love sweltering beneath
It steams my soul like August summer heat
Ready to experience a simple embrace
Awaiting the joy of seeing a smile on your face
Now I know how to stay
I’m ready to slice the cake
Now I know what it takes
I de-cluttered my pulmonary space
Eagerly anticipating my rightful place
Ready to love
I recognize you’re a gift from above
Longing for the chance to accept you as you are
No matter where you are I’ll help you shine your inner star
Bright as the full moon lights
The dark blue sky
I’ll give you real pie that’s not in flight
Ready to show strength in your weak moments
Ready to scratch the itch you can’t find
Ready to bring ease to your mind
Ready to stay whether we like George & Wisey
Or James &Florida Evans
God is truly my witness
That I’m ready to love
And accept you as my gift from above…

Unfinished Business

2009-11-20T05:00:00.000-08:00

Wow! What a thought to ponder “Unfinished Business”. Really sit and think about what is unfinished in your life. When I speak about life I’m speaking to the nine areas of your life, spiritual, family, health, education, personal, financial, recreational, business & civic. So when you think of your life in a complete manner as this, it can help you see one, how much opportunity you have left, your unfinished business is simply opportunities to live, to see how much you truly have left to live for. These opportunities are laid out by you and sometimes divinely for you. So you see you do have a voice, you do have a ‘say’ for the most part in your own life. Looking at all your unfinished business daily has a peculiar way of focusing your life. Having life focus will give you the synergy you need to gain momentum & help you de-clutter your life of insignificant activities and dead weight people. Momentum will allow you to enjoy the journey towards completion. It starts with one step, one thought, and one decision that you can start TODAY! Create a chart or take a sheet of paper for each area and list all your unfinished business in each, then choose at least one item from each area if possible that you can start today. Build your calendar around this list. Additionally let this list guide your relationship choices. Look at your list daily to keep your focus and momentum. Check off the items as you complete them, that experience alone is exhilarating. Maintain your lists as a part of your history, to remind you as you grow how much you have done as you continue to look forward to your opportunity, vision and momentum that resides in you! Embrace your unfinished business!

WHAT IS THIS THING CALLED LOVE

2009-11-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

What is this __ love that thou art mindful of it
What is this that makes one seek it, seek to give it,
Seek to receive it
What is this __ love
What is it, that it can make a man risk his life for his family
What is it that it makes a mother willing to endure
Tremendous pain to bring forth a child
What is love that thou art mindful of it
What is it that some say it warms a cold LIFE
What is it, this love
That makes one like a drunken man, impairing one’s
Vision from focus on the ugliness of life
What is this love that it makes one laugh in the dark
Or makes another fight to stay alive
What is this love
That it covers a multitude of sins
That it could make one die a gruesome death
For humanity on a cross
That one could give his only begotten son
What is this love that thou art mindful of it…

Just Being

2009-10-30T00:00:00.000-07:00

The word Be-ing makes me think of the action of my essence, coming forth into the moment. If I am Be-ing I can no longer be tranquilized into inaction by my future or imprisoned by my past. Be-ing allows me to just be in the now. What a concept. Just being. How sweet life can be and is when I connect and am aware of the inner me. How clear life can be when I can be still know. The overachiever is saying what do you mean being tranquilized into inaction by my future? The worry hog is saying what do you mean being imprisoned by my past? The busy body is saying what do you mean there’s clarity in stillness? I can feel your thoughts as I paint these words on this page. When I am settled into an overachieving mindset it often keeps me in a futuristic mode and yes I’ve accomplished many external things that way, but it cripples me from acting in the now. When I am constantly cognicent of my past it imprisons me and stifles creativity. The now is feared because I say well I am just be cautious or prudent or don’t want the past to repeat itself. The reality is you never left the past and you are being robbed of the thought of Be-ing in the now. Being busy is like a drug and w all know drugs can be ab-used. Busy-ness is like your sun-block from the now, your escape from the moment and ultimately your get-a-way from YOU. Worry, overachieving, busy-bodiness on a consistent basis robs you of the only true promise which is now. The world is being robbed of the opportunity of experiencing YOU Just Be-ing. You with fulfillment, love, peace, joy, laughter, purpose and acceptance. You being connected with you right now. Just Being can end the mental pain. Just being removes fear. Just being is reality. Just being is complete.

“WHERE I WANT TO BE”

2009-10-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

As I sit on the beach pondering on a sentence from Russell Simmon’s “Do You” book, the end of it leaped off the page at me. I asked myself the question “Where do I want to be?”, not in the future but right now in my mind and spirit? The answer is free. I never thought about where I want to be in this moment, I’ve always thought of it futuristically. I wonder if there are others like me, who allow the future to rob them of today. No more, I say it truly feels good to appreciate & love this day. I have a choice, I get a say in how I feel & view today. I may not have all the material things I desire, but I can certainly experience the state of being where I want to be, today. Where I want to be is available to me, right now in this moment. The inner peace, unconditional love, sustainable joy & freedom from my own mental prison is within reach today as it has always been. Today I am finally where I want to be & so can you, just open your eyes & see!

Thirsty @ thirty

2009-10-10T05:00:00.000-07:00

Thirsty @ thirty
By SL Wells
Will my thirst for authenticity ever be quenched?
Will the anger inside ever subside?
Will the river of my depth ever flow again?
Will patience ever find me?
Will the flavor of life ever return to my mouth?
Will I ever taste the sweet nectar of true romantic love?
Will my inner beauty ever be desired?
Will my help ever connect with a true need?
Will my supply ever reach its demand?
Will the cloud of bitterness ever pass away from me?
Will my joy become visible?
Will bodies and minds stop surrendering to lust?
Will common sense ever make a come back?
Will the beauty of NOW ever be discovered?
Will the promise of the future ever be realized?
Will freedom reach my finances and time?
Will connection ever intersect my soul?
Will forgiveness ever reach the surface?
My thirties are full of so much discovery…
Hit me back and let me know what you think and tell me about your thirst???

REST IN YOUR TRUST

2009-10-02T14:29:00.000-07:00

Though he slay me yet will I trust him

Job's words help me sleep at night

I know the plans I have for you , plans for good not for disaster

That account from Jeremiah gives me peace to arise

He will never leave me nor forsake me

David's account of this helps me to stand

The race is not given to the swift or strong, but he who endures

Paul's words help to keep me moving forward

I know my sheep & my sheep know me, no one can pluck them out of my hand

This word from Jesus reassures & gives me the confidence I need

God's home is now amongst his people & he shall be with them & they will be his people

This angelic account gives me the Joy I need to stay in this race until I finish my course

Now, I can rest in trust.

Tears of a Woman

2009-09-30T05:00:00.000-07:00

How my heart cries out for honesty
How my mind longs for the day it can release its deepest thoughts without judgement
How my trust longs to find a loyal safe ear to share its vulnerable secrets with
How I long for the day society will accept me no matter the state
Whether I be strong today or weak tomorrow
No pressure within
To keep up a strong front because the color of my skin
How I long to just be;
Woman in all her splendor and majesty and softness
Her weakness, her essence, her pain, her fears, her tears, her love her joy
How my cheeks seek for a secure shoulder to lay upon
How my body longs for a long comforting hug
From a mature wise loving senior woman
How my eyes miss the day
Where children went outside to play
Games like hop scotch, kickball, freeze, hide & go seek, red light green light
hand games & imaginary friends until just before the street lights came on
How my ears miss the voice of big mama and the candy lady asking what you want, or what flavor frozen cup you want and all the kids reply RED
How my tastebuds long for the taste of coconut cookies lemon heads, cherry clans, jawbreakers & hot sausages with the booty on it
How I long for the day for sisters to stop exploiting
Themselves as the video ho in popular music videos
How I long for the day to stop seeing men reduce themselves to what’s in their wallet & dangling between their legs
How I long for the day to see more families stay together for better or for worse
My soul longs to see fathers connect more with their sons on a heart level
And mothers to keep hugging their daughters even after their bodies start to develop & reach puberty
How I long to see society provide more structure & support for our young people between 9-12 the critical sexual identity stage
Oh how my heart longs to see genuine love and support without the fluff
How I am thirsty for deep conversation, beyond sex, sports & money
How my spirit longs to be free from manipulative believers who accuse
Misuse and ab-use other believers
How I long for the day politicians will truly say what they mean
My intellect screams for the day public education will truly be reformed & everyone
Will stop paying our youth & educators mere lip service
I long for the day of a new awakening within the soul of a woman
My eyes long to see the day a woman’s value is not assessed based on whether she has a man or not
My time longs for financial freedom
My mind longs for sincerity
My body longs for non-sexual touch
My future is tired of seeing me and others using crutches
My now longs for me and only me
My past seeks to be free of me…

I NEED YOU BADDER THAN A HOG NEED SLOP!!!

2009-09-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

I am like an addict wanting to go higher & higher in you
My thoughts are being taken hostage by you
I day dream about you
You mean more to me
Than the air I breathe
My love for you is welling and swelling
Within the depths of my soul
There are places within, only you can console
Your splendor & glory my eyes want to behold
I need you
Badder than a hog need slop
I got it bad
To you I make my confessions
This love I have for you is an obsession
I just can’t get enough of you, even when I battle depression
When I think of you its hard to be sad
Or stay mad
Your words have impregnated me with life
You are my essential spice
Without you my life is not right
When I don’t feel you near
It seems like a dark cold night
Relating with you is what I hold dear
You know how to wipe away all my dirty smears
I will love, honor & serve you all of my years
In you I have peace
You calm all my fears
You give me such a release
That keeps me fresh & free
I need you LORD
Badder than a Hog need slop!!!

LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS, WHAT DO YOU NEED???

TOUCH ME PLEASE!

2009-09-09T00:33:00.000-07:00

The very thought can make the tiny hairs on your arms stand up. Touch is the balance we need in life. It’s our yin and yang, our energy conduit, for our growth & development. To touch is to connect. Touch can make one feel secure. Touch can convey a message of acceptance which is what every human wants deep down inside. The right non-romantic touch can keep a girl from pre-maturely losing her virginity. The right non-sexual touch can keep a boy from committing suicide. A loving touch can keep someone from committing a crime. The right touch can keep you from losing your mind. It’s the necessary serum we need for prevention and repairs. Touch can help pre-term infants reach a healthy weight. Touch can help you overcome injuries. When you get a bruise, cut or scrape the immediate response is to touch. Touch can bring about comfort. It can help you make it through some of your darkest days. A touch can say I’m with you and support you. Touch can improve self esteem. A touch can say good job, keep up the good work. A touch can say you can do it, I believe in you. Touch what a gift to give and receive. More non-romantic touch is what the world needs. Touch can bring about peace. The right non-sexual touch can keep a marriage together. Non-romantic touch brings families closer together. If we can just get over our taboo about touch, maybe just maybe we can set this world right side up. Help this world with a little more touch!